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Saturday, January 24th, 2009 | Author: Moody

[The following work was originally posted to my LiveJournal. I am giving it a new home here, as I plan to do with several other entries from my past journals. This piece is from March of 2005.]

This is the train I am on. I feel the wheels passing over the joints between the long, narrow, silver-black twin rails. They are a helix uncoiled, and my window looks out into the distances of the body. In the canal that runs along beside me, I see the feathered reflection of the light from mine and the other windows, like the sprocket holes of a strip of film. Stand still and engage the shutter of the mind’s eye, let the train pass, and see the transformations between one face and the next. At the right pace, the film appears to run backwards; time is uncertain.

When the summer passed / When the rain erupted in secret latitudes /

Like the sway of shoulder blades winding the spine as the scythe fells age after age, they dance for the moment in the name of momentum, these images, this memento mori. And the moon’s pale kisses smudge the shadows of longing across the covers of the bed where we lie together as one, and we disintegrate in darkness, becoming as the faintly sparkling stardust used in a fable to enchant the dreams of an ageless soul.

There in the tropics of your irony / Where we dined on solace in isolation /

This is the train we are on. We feel the passing over the joints between the long, narrow, silver-black twin rails. They are a helix oiled by the river of our blood and unfurled by the beating of our hands on the bare skin of rhythm’s own drum. As I pass through this city it is you I feel in my mouth, caressing my tongue with the tastes of your orison, coloring my words with the quick of your breath. I feel more free now than I ever have. Stripped of all my rationales, my rations taken away, purged by my penury, I have only these eyes with which to hear your presence, only these ears with which to perceive your touch. This is the train that I, alone, am on.

You touched the hamstring of a bird’s leg / Cried and cooed to its wing /

My destination is the station, but the station has no name. It exists in a city, but the city is forgotten. The city lies in a country that has no borders, no people, no national anthem or flag, no flower, no bird. There are no tourists here. We are all citizens. This will be the first time I have ever been here, and it will feel good to be home again, to sit at the table and eat and drink as I sleep beside you, inside you, without you.

Perching on the high wall / Mylar soul or la lune esprit /

The ages pass. I have never been off this train. Forever the countryside has passed my window, and the chuffing of the engine has never slowed, save on the high mountain passes where the snow never melts and the horizon seems to swell into oblivion beneath skies of the purest, most lonesome cerulean beatitude. Always there are the outposts, the fire barrels, the people warming hands, drinking sepia water from plastic milk jugs as their children hide behind the broken edges of hollow buildings. Always there are the vast fields of blonde grain, of green rice, of blue corn, of dusty cabbage and smoky grape. Always there are sheep, cows, pigs, chickens. There are trees and hills, plains and broken places, deserts and seas. And I have seen the world forever, and nothing has changed and everything has changed and even change itself is different now — though that was only to be expected.

Pecking at my lips before taking flight / Bird shy /

Tomorrow, after we arrive, I will walk down to the station and I will board the train. For the first time, I will leave here. I have never seen anything with these blind eyes, have never heard anything with these unperceptive ears. I have been quiet for so long. Your song burned in my heart like a coal, and I longed for the stars. After I get here, it will be good to finally know you. I will be alone at last, and your kiss — the very first kiss that I have ever received — will utterly destroy me. I will be free to exist.

The cage of these ribs is littered with crumbs of fascination / And the news of the day’s impending obituary.

How long has this all been a dream?

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Saturday, December 27th, 2008 | Author: Moody

Stories from Curious Outsiders

Stories from Curious Outsiders

hitotoki : A Narrative Map of Tokyo. (See also New York, London, Paris, Shanghai, and Sofia).

This is one of my favorite sites to visit. What you are presented with is an active Google map of the city with placemarks to identify where each story happens. You also get a few pictures that link to the various stories, as well as text links that quote a line of any given story. The layout is pleasing to the eye and straightforward.

The stories are often, I have found, amazingly well written and I always wind up feeling like I know the place a little more, in a significant way, than I did before. Mind you, I have never been to the majority of these places, yet I have gleaned from these personal recollections and anecdotes what I believe to be a genuine sense of them. This is a wonderful thing.

The site enhances our sense of the greater world “out there”, and it shows us that people are not so different from one place to another, even as it illustrates the differences that do exist.

Highly recommended.

Monday, January 21st, 2008 | Author: Moody

It should be easier to explain than this.

To touch someone’s hand as you walk together through grass that reaches up past your calves to tickle that spot behind your knees. The smile that’s shared then. Not at all tentative, although you might think that’s what it is you see; boldness, actually, beneath the warm, translucent blue iris sky with its streamers of cloud like the Milky Way.

It should be easier to explain why this matters.

Not merely that, in later hours, alone, holding between both hands a hot mug of Folgers with a splash of milk and three teaspoons of sugar and one of chocolate mix — the mug sitting on your chest, on top of the blanket — you will smile up at the ceiling where the glow of the television brightens and fades across the grain. And that it will be just like the time you placed your hand over your niece’s hand as she petted the big black Lab named Chick, the first dog she’d ever touched, ever petted, in your backyard and she said “Doggy soft!” and nearly squealed with delight in that high little voice of hers, and her hand was soft and warm and animate, and her bright, clear, hazel eyes were wide as the ones you see in all those Japanese cartoons nowadays. And that it will be just like the time you brushed back your mother’s soft, gray-brown hair from her high, smooth brow and she sighed contentedly in her sleep, just before you headed off to bed with the holiday lights twinkling in reds and blues, yellows and greens, behind you, casting a warm glow from the front room and chasing your vague shadow before you toward the dimly inferred door of the room you still think of as yours even now that you’ve not been there for years. If only it was easy to explain this.

Those moments strung together like decorative lights or maybe like a cluster of tea lights on a table or china cabinet or…. Those moments blurring into minutes when there arose this sense of something eternal happening, bleeding through from some other dimension, from some unknown compass point, spilling into the now and uplifting it like an icon of joy. It’s not a matter of returning to innocence or finding love or being remade whole at last. It’s not just some confirmation of life or seal of approval from on high or anything like that. In some ways it’s achingly, stupidly sentimental.

But it’s also not that at all, because it’s like freedom and release. To briefly touch another and know, like a leaping spark of electricity, that you are both alive and there and real. To know that it’s really happening, and that all that came before is something that really happened, and that it will all go on because — look at the starlight! Look. How long did it take for it to get here? And it will be just like that, and like the time you took your first road trip all by yourself and realized that you were this autonomous agent in the world but it only mattered if you devoured as much of it as you could. And now there are all these pictures you have in various yellow and white envelopes, and all the ones in those two big photo books that you took the time to label and occasionally take out to share with someone who will try but never quite get how much the journey meant to who you are today. And it’s all such a jumble because how on earth could you ever say what it is you know it means… you know it means. How could you ever explain?

It should be easier to explain. Explain why you must weep into your pillow when it hits you just how significant it is that you were so fortunate to know that embrace, that kiss, that casual brush of a hand. How you burst! How you break into dust and scatter away like seeds to grow anew in a thousand other ways! And maybe it is that it’s simply not meant to be explained. Maybe there are some things — like rain falling on the window when you’re resting your chin on the chill, damp-feeling sill and watching the leaves just beyond the pane bounce and drip-drop the raindrops from each to each until the water is lost among the roots — that bear only silence as they happen and refuse to be captured when recounted later. Maybe it is that this sweet pain is a reward, a pointer that indicates without numbers or letters or art that you have done all right, and that you should be grateful for it, grateful to it, because it came to you for no reason other than you brought it, sui generis, to you.

Sunday, April 22nd, 2007 | Author: Moody

ONCE UPON A TIME, right here and not far away at all, there was a little blue-green-brown world orbiting a common – but no less glorious for that – yellow star. Under the bright golden-white light of their star, even on cloudy days, many living things lived and died on this planet. The really dominant species was bacteria, and the second was insects, but the third, the self-congratulatory Homo-sapiens-sapiens, were total wisenheimers in the world-o-dominance and so called themselves the supremely most dominant dominaters of all what can be dominated. In other words: “W00t! wE pwn j00!!!1 1337!@”, they cried like frat boys.

Anyway, today is the day they called Earth Day, a day made in honor of themselves and their effort to make a good show of cleaning up after themselves even as large numbers of them still ran roughshod all over the face of the planet doing unspeakably vile things to it in the name of their god, “Free Market”. Now, some people really did do their darnedest and damnedest and whatsits to make the world a better place, and I’m not here to cast aspersions on them; the well-meaning are hard to find, and those who act on their well-meaningness are scarcer than hens’ teeth in the old chickens’ home (not that many chickens were ever allowed to grow old), so kudos to them (requiescant in pace and all that rot). But the truth is that in the end there were a lot of good intentions paving the road to that universal Lagos, and folks just didn’t get that there needed to be a massive revolution and not just a switch from regular bulbs to longer-lasting ones with mercury in them.

Because the revolution never came, and because they insisted still on driving massively wasteful vehicles on inefficient highways while gobbling up the planet’s resources as tens of millions of others starved or died from war or diseases, etc., and because they continued to allow an insane passivity to control them and their children, – well, things went from OK to not-so-great to should-we-worry? to what-shall-we-do-now? to oh-god-make-it-stop!!! to a death rattle. And then the bugs took over, although certain small mammals would disagree and nobody is quite sure if there are cetaceans left or what they’d say anyway. Probably just sing at you about fish.

Not to worry, though. It took quite a long while for humans to do themselves and scads more species in. Many of them lived and died thinking that – get this – the earth would be OK and nothing bad would happen. They thought they had insurance from the sky. You’ll just have to imagine me rolling my compound eyes. Even the kids of kids of kids of their kids managed to survive all right, I guess, all things considered. But once the religio-political infrastructures fell and the weather turned downright nasty on a regular basis and the waters rose and droughts came and viruses figured out new and unique ways of killing their hosts and famine swept the lands like clouds of locusts…. Well, it wasn’t pretty. It blows my wee little mind that humans ‘prophesied’ about it and then made it happen. They always were a species pro self-fulfillment.

And yeah, sure, all right, some humans survived. They don’t freaking look like much now, though. I’m sitting on the back of the neck of one right now. I’m not being swatted, so I imagine that this one’s not got much fight left, not much time to contemplate what happened. Then again, that doesn’t much matter to me, a gadfly on the neck of a dying human who probably doesn’t know death’s coming. Poor sod. Looks like it might have been pregnant, too… or, well, it probably just starved to death. They often look like that when they do.

Anyway, happy Earth Day! I’ll be seeing you.

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Thursday, January 12th, 2006 | Author: Moody

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[image]Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, by J.K. Rowling

The sixth installment in Rowling’s series finds Harry facing his greatest trial so far, with promises of graver difficulties to come, as he comes to face the dire nature of his (apparent) fate.

While I would not go so far as to compare Rowling’s opus to Tolkien’s The Lord of the Rings, I do think it compares quite favorably to The Hobbit. Even as the adult themes become more pronounced, it is clear that Rowling’s intended audience is still a youthful one. Adults may certainly enjoy the HP series, as they enjoyed The Hobbit, that much is obvious, but one would never mistake it for, say, Octavia E. Butler’s Parable of… books. This is not a complaint about Rowling’s series, which my pre-teen daughter has read and enjoyed every installment of, but an observation with an attendant caveat: the series, while engaging itself in lessons about the difficulties of growing up and the gray areas of life that must be dealt with, is written well within the parameters of “young adult literature”, and therefore does not provide the scope, in breadth or depth, of the adult register, even when the matter at hand is typically an adult one. For a contrast to the HP series, see Philip Pullman’s His Dark Materials trilogy, which expertly introduces young readers to adult issues in a way that they can understand and learn from.

This brings me to my only real complaint about the HP series. As much as I have personally enjoyed the story so far, have grown attached to its main characters and been delighted by the world of wizards as Rowling has re-created it, I have felt somewhat disappointed in her handling of Harry’s maturation, especially as he is the protagonist, the sine qua non of her story. I found myself, at the end of The Half-Blood Prince (once the emotional turmoil of the last two chapters had faded, that is), feeling particularly critical of Harry’s rather unreflective behavior throughout the series, or, put another way, of Rowling’s handling of Harry’s psyche as adversity and tragedy continue to temper it. But perhaps I am missing something. Perhaps Rowling is simply portraying the truth of an adolescent boy, for whom such lessons are unconsciously assimilated at first, to be unpacked and dealt with only later. Perhaps Rowling has observed that, for a younger audience, it’s important to leave the emotional interpretations of story events to them, rather than to “tell” too much via the main character’s own dealings and understanding. Perhaps, in writing such a lengthy story, some things have to be left out. However, I think that Pullman’s His Dark Materials trilogy proves that a young person’s self-reflective maturation can be dealt with, and that doing so proves to be the more rewarding route for the story’s intended audience.

[image]Memories of My Melancholy Whores, by Gabriel García Márquez

A lovely, disturbing, wonderful and moving work of literature. I am at a loss for words in its wake, if only because I don’t want to gush. In a mere 115 pages, the master of magic realism has shown his voice to be as strong as ever, his pitch perfect (for a novella), his vision pure and true to the heart of life in all its complexities and conundrums. While some have harshly criticized the work on a number of fronts – from subject matter to the treatment of same – I found the author to be, yet again, unfettered by convention and more than capable of spinning a fully realized tale worth the telling. It is no Lolita redux that we are offered here, but rather a mature view into an old man’s imperfect ex post facto coming of age. The story is provocative, certainly, but it is neither an exercise in pathos nor an ode to pedophilia. Looked at as a metaphor, it is easier to see where the author is going. There is, in the end, a very human redemption for the old man in his pursuit of a youthful love, and detractors who see only a perverse relationship unfolding are missing the psychologically rich quality of the story.

[image]The Brief and Frightening Reign of Phil, by George Saunders

I can really do no better than to point you to Saunders’s own piece on why he wrote this remarkable, darkly comedic, highly recommended work. I suppose I could, in order to whet your appetite, quote this much from it:

I found myself writing, “Once there was a country that was too small for all its inhabitants to fit inside at once.” Soon the story was going off in an unexpected direction, and was becoming that rare and not-so-sought-after thing, a kid’s story about genocide. The characters evolved from abstract shapes to beings I thought of as Conglomerates, composed of flesh and machine parts and vegetative portions. One group, led by Phil, was soon trying to eliminate the other group, and Phil, talking in Stalinist rants whenever his brain fell off, was consolidating his power a lá Hitler, surrounding himself with brown-nosing Advisors, brainless needy henchman, and groveling media spokespersons, and then murdering the opposition in gruesome ways. Needless to say, all hope for marketing tie-ins vanished.

Really, you owe it to yourself to pick this slim novel up – perhaps along with Julio Cortázar’s also brilliantly entertaining work, Cronopios and Famas.